To say goodbye

When I found out that you were sick and that eventually the cancer would take your life the first thing that I said to Mike was, "how am I going to say goodbye to my mom?"  I'm still trying to figure that out. It doesn't seem fair to take a mom away from her daughter and yet it happens all the time I know. I knew that you had a big impact on my life and that I was and am lucky to have you as my mom but after you were gone I realized just how much I think of you. There are certain things that only you would understand, or laugh at, or be as annoyed with as me. It's hard to lose that person that is your sounding board in life in a way that no one else can be. You and I are so alike it was always nice to have that one person that I could talk to that would "get it".  I miss you Mom, every single day. I think about you constantly. It's warming up outside and my tulips are popping up out of the dirt and so of course I think of you. You love tulips and would always tell me when your spring flowers started to bloom. I am so glad that there are reminders of you in my day.